everything went banana sandwiches

So the last few years have been some major ups and downs for my family, friends and myself. The loss of children medical issues loss of friends(not having them anymore) finnancial issues and loss of jobs and so forth. Times have been alittle trying in our house but I can gladly say I see a light at the end of the tunnel. 2 and 1/2 years ago I was diganossed with sever social anxiety disorder with ptsd I was put on zoloft and sent to a therapist. I was very sceptical about all of this but looking back now it has helped so much getting to talk things out with an uninvolved 3rd party helped me release a lot of pent up feelings I was able to get over a lot of things that scared the shit out of me. 3 years ago if I had to call someone I didn't know I would have put it off until I appsolutly had to call, now I'm not fully over this but I have gotten to a point where I can make phone calls without crying first. I used to avoid going out in public by myself now not only do I go out by myself but I drag my tantrum throwing 3year old and my screaming 2 month old with me...and I survive :) on top of all this I haven't woken from a dead sleep from the horrible flash backs I use to have in over a year. I lost my job that i loved very much in january this year over here say. That was a blessing in disquise(sp?) I would have been taken out of work a few days after i was fired. But because i was fired over here say i got unemployment which has enabled me to stay home with my boys although im looking into getting my cna and going back to work a couple days a week.

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