growing up

ater a short conversation with an old "friend" today i have realized i have "grown up" and changed so much. my senior year of high school and the year after i was a huge partier and i was dow nto do just about anything. i never got heavy into drugs but poke the smot and popped pills for a good time but after i got pregnant with Kayden things really got pulled into perspective for me. i am pretty striaght edge these days i have an occasional drink. yea lame i know but looking back i really don't see the point in the drugs and being that stupid drunk. but not only having my boys changed my out look but watching people around me go to jail for doing harder drugs or killing themselves with it or killing other people just makes it that more clear to me that it doesn't need to be part of my life. i'm not anti all drugs if you wanna smoke pot go for it, its not gonna ruin your life. i just choose not to live my life that way any more. anyways i'm not really sure where i am going with this post but i know i am not 'cool" and guess what i don't care my family and friends love me anyways thats all that matters

my boys :) <3