ex's and baby daddies

I have to many of them and because I have lived in this damn town for so long I run into a few of them quite often. Let's start with my first serious boyfriend I was 15 he was 18 he changed my life in many ways that at this time I choose not to discuss at this time. We had a pretty bad falling out and he dissapeared out of my life for 8 years I had all but forgotten about him we he came back into my life via myspace he told me he still had feelings for me after all this time which floored me because in the end it was so bad. He has since then faded into the background yet again. After him was my second longest relationship I thought this one was the one but his mother hated me fo some reason I still am not 100% sure of and she caused us to drift apart after almost 2 years. We stayed friends for a few years after then he just stopped talking to me and still to this day refusses to talk to me even though he is friends with my husband(odd story there haha). After him were a string of short relationships that never worked because they couldn't live up to him. Then my senior year I got involved with the biggest regret of my life this guy used me and got me into a very bad situation(yet another post later down the road) I dropped him like a bad habbit and moved to Idaho. Yet another string of very short not even relationships then on my 19th birthday I met Kayden's dad I thought that man walked on water (you can read my previous post for that one) I still care for him very deeply its hard not to he gave me a beautiful child and he knows me better than anyone else in this world(my husband is coming very close to knowing me that well after 4 years) although I do still love him I know he is not good for me we are great friends but horrible partners we know eachother TOO well and its hasardous for our health. After that I got with a childhood friend and almost married him until I found out what he was really like( no paticence and a theif) Kayden never liked him I should have realized it was a sign because last year I found out this man went to prison for child porn ( this makes me sick to know he was around my child). Then next came a relatioship that caused a lot of mental health problems he was/is a pathalogical liar but Kayden adorred him. When we broke up he promised he would still come around for Kayden...he never did then he had the nerve to call me 1year after Kayden passed and stired up a bunch of memories( this is when my ptsd started) thank god he went back to prison (guess what for...lying) after him more short relationships then I met my husband in march of 2007. He was the best thing to happen to me at that time(sorry babe I love you with all my heart but. Our boys are the bestest ) we have been together just over 4 years now and haven't killed eachother yet :) despite all our ups and down. But he stood by me at my worsest so he deserves me at my best. Even though I have been done wrong a lot I wouldn't change it one bit it has made me a stronger(slightly more mental) person

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